Monday, January 18, 2010

Reformation

Taken from Journal Entry 12-31-09

I received a revelation this morning that the word reformation is truly the equivalent of words like revolution, or declaration. Somehow we suppress this notion to assume that reformation invokes a peaceful resolve to change. Reformation for many conjures an illusion of prayer vigils and peace rallies that quietly change hearts and minds from the inside out. Reformation is however, quite the contrary.

Reformation equates death threats, accusations of heresy and slanderous gossip of all kinds. Reformation means public crucifixion for whomever is bold enough to lead it. Peaceful prayer rallies are met with violent armed men with water hoses, guard dogs and tear gas. Public beatings and private torture are reserved for anyone committed enough to stand firm til the end. Anyone who feels called to a reformation must be willing to count the cost. However, anyone willing to follow Jesus as lord and truly do what He says needs to understand they are signing up for a great reformation.

Jesus is always doing something new. And with the introduction of something new comes the immediate resistance by the old, not only because the old by nature disagrees, but because it is bursting the containers of what held and protected the old. Reformation must occur in order to refit the old containers for the new content that must fill them.

From Martin Luther to Martin Luther King Jr. reformation has been the advocate for the innocent who have been lost admist the hiearchy of religion and science and trambled under the traditions of men, in order to point men back to the true image of Christ. I am thankful for such men who would lay everything on the line to stand firm for what is right. I only hope to be such a man in my lifetime.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

Aftermath

Proverbs 10:25  
When the storm has swept by, the wicked are gone, but the righteous stand firm forever.

I've been through a lot of storms in my life. In September 1989, I was a 10 year old boy who experienced a hurricane named Hugo. We were 200 miles inland and yet the storm maintained so much intensity that it knocked over trees and pounded our house with wind and rain for several hours. We were left with no running water or electricity for a week or two.

I remember standing in our downstairs closet when the wind was really bad. Thoughts of our roof coming off and having to endure this hurricane face to face ran through my young mind that night. That never happened, but just the thought of it terrified me.

When the sun dawned on the scene early the next morning we found shingles missing from our roof and branches of trees scattered across our yard. We discovered we were without power or running water and for the next couple weeks we lived a more simpler life, but we were fine. We just picked up the pieces of what the storm had done.

About a year later in the same house I remember it being a beautiful day, windy but absolutely gorgeous outside. I had been playing with my younger brother and had come in to the house for a break. I went upstairs where we had a sliding glass window in our dining room. I had come to get something to drink and something drew me to the window. As I looked out on our house's property I noticed a giant oak tree swaying in the wind back where our property line met our distant neighbor's heavily wooded forest. This grand oak swayed towards us and shook as if some invisible hand had grabbed its massive trunk to jostle it.

Suddenly out of no where this massive cloud came rolling over the tops of the trees and this 100 foot oak nearly bent over, along with every other tree around it. The wind was so strong and my mother yelled for me and my brother to run down stairs. I was mesmerized by everything going on and when I snapped out of my daze, I ran quickly to our basement. My mom tucked us away in our tiny closet located downstairs in the center of our house. I remember being so scared that my knees were knocking together uncontrollably.

And then just as quickly as this chaos began it stopped.

We ventured outside to see what had happened and to our surprise it wasn't much.  On the back side of our house leaves from the forest that nestled up to our property were scattered everywhere. To the front of our house a small dogwood tree had been uprooted and the cover to our well pump had been moved 200 yards away by the impressive wind storm we encountered. Shaken, but not harmed, we immediately began picking up the pieces of our yard.

Jump forward several years, I was a teenager and we had moved to a small town called China Grove. We moved there to live with my grandmother who had been diagnosed with Alzheimer's disease. We moved in to take care of her.

We were suppose to be leaving soon for a Vess family reunion, but soon for the Vess family meant that we were always at least two hours behind. My uncle had come by to pick up my grandmother earlier that day. My dad was yelling at my younger brother who was acting up exceptionally bad and for what ever reason, neither wanted to go to this reunion and especially did not want to get ready to leave.

The forecast called for scattered thunderstorms that day, but no one predicted what we saw.

Just about the time we were all finally ready and willing to leave it started to rain really hard. Then lightning and tremendously loud thunder kicked in. Then it began to get really strange. Suddenly the garage doors started to go up and down by themselves. Then it started to hail.

Now I had grown accustomed to seeing hail from time to time, and as it started to do so I noticed that there was an exceptional amount of it this time. You could hear the hail ping-ponging off our roof and it almost seemed soothing for sometime.

However, that did not last long. Out of no where it sounded like men were standing on our roof and hitting it with Louisville sluggers. We looked outside and the tiny marble sized hail balls had grown to become the size of golf balls.  Then it sounded like there was an exchange of the Louisville slugger for something with a little more weight, like say a sledge hammer. We looked out and there was softball sized hail pounding our yard and house.

We ran downstairs and brought our terrified dogs inside. My brother was about in tears and I was nervous, as well as my dad. My mother on the other hand was surprisingly excited as she began to shout, "Thank you Jesus! It's the end times, Jesus is coming soon!" To which we found more annoying than encouraging, as her yelling only frightened the dogs more and shook my nerves a little more to be perfectly honest.

The onslaught of this hail beating continued for several minutes.

The aftermath resulted in our minivan (that we had moved outside from the garage, because we were finally ready to go) being totally destroyed. Remember that scene at the end Michael Jackson's video Black or White where he turned into a panther, sashayed up to a car, turned back into a human, played with his zipper and then proceeded to beat the hell out of somebodies car with a baseball bat? Well, it was worse than that.  It looked like a whole army of people with baseball bats beat our poor minivan. The front and back windows were shattered and the roof was totally beaten in. It was incredible.

Tree limbs were down everywhere and not to mention softball to melon sized hail balls covered our yard and our neighbor's yard. I have a friend that said they actually had a hail log bust through their roof and land in their living room. We immediately went to work picking up the pieces of our car and house and trying to clean up what we could.

The truth is that storms will always come whether you think you are good or you know you are bad. You never feel like you deserve them and you find yourself feeling small and vulnerable in the midst of them.  And, if you're strong enough, you find yourself picking up the pieces from the aftermath of a storm. So long as you still have a foundation to build on, you rebuild. Or if your house was strong enough to endure the winds, rain and hail of whatever category storm you faced, then you simply repair the damage.  The test is not the fact that you experienced a storm, but rather the test is what you do after the experience. Did the experience wash you out? Did it move you on? Even still, did you learn from it? Did it change you, refine you, purge you? Or are you still the same? I'm speaking more figuratively than literally.

To remain unfazed is wonderful if you truly believe that you were perfect to begin with, but who really is? I believe that any storm you face in life can shake you and even crush you, but does that define you? No, its not the storm that defines who I am, the storm is only there to refine me. To chisel away the rough edges and smooth out the unrefined characteristics. Its the storms in life that push me from point A to point B or redirect me from taking point C. Either way storms come and they happen to everybody. However, its in the aftermath that you can discover new things about yourself.

Its in the rebuilding that you can remodel and reinforce yourself. Truth is, a storm will either make you stronger or weaker depending on your reaction.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

When it Rains it Pours

Why does the rain fall on the just and the unjust alike?  One would think that because you live a faithful life you'd be omitted from all hard times.  I mean, life is full of winding turns, but we've all thought, "I don't deserve this."  You make plans and you attempt to follow through on them, but life comes at you fast and ultimately God determines the ultimate outcome.

Especially for His followers.  Which seems ironic to us. We live in a time of doctrine that teaches us that we are to be prosperous and if you are a 'true believer' then life should be a life of nice cars, extravagant houses and comfortable nest eggs.

Comfortability is  never and was never what Jesus offered when He said "come follow me." On the contrary, He promised that life will have its fair share of troubles. And trouble is what I have found. Just try to dedicate yourself wholeheartedly and see if your life remains comfortable. I had a comfortable life and then I read Isaiah 6.


  In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple.  Above him were seraphs, each with six wings: With two wings they covered their faces, with two they covered their feet, and with two they were flying. And they were calling to one another:
       "Holy, holy, holy is the LORD Almighty;
       the whole earth is full of his glory."

  At the sound of their voices the doorposts and thresholds shook and the temple was filled with smoke.
  "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty."
  Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar.  With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."
  Then I heard the voice of the Lord saying, "Whom shall I send? And who will go for us?"
  And I said, "Here am I. Send me!"



One day I was praying in my nice comfortable two story, three bedroom home in Nashville, TN that God had truly blessed me and Jess with. I was pacing back and forth in my room praying when this verse came to mind. "Who shall I send? And who will go for us?"


This verse echoed in my mind and I prayed out loud "Here I am. Send me!" From that moment my comfortable life ceased to exist. I have found that the closer I draw to God the more I repel the people that used to call me friend. Not only that, but I have found that persecution has occurred the more open I am about the One I love. And I have found that this hardship mainly comes from people inside the church. Those that have lived longer than myself and have developed their own form of religion to supersede their original relationship with their Father. What terrifies me is that I am only one hardened heart away from becoming the same. 


What I find however is that it is the rain that pours down at times that brings me back to a place of brokenness before Him. Sometimes the harder the downpour the harder my heart has become or even worse the more self sufficient I have allowed myself to be. When I am content with my own sufficiency then I am salt that has lost its saltiness. I am no longer good for anything, because I have said in my heart that I am sufficient for my own needs. 


The trials and tribulations however, drive me into His presence as I have no more of myself to rely on. When the storm comes through I am undone. And all that is left is me with saline eyes and a nearness of my heavenly Father showing me His unmerited love. Everything else is broken and ripped apart when the storm blows through. 

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Testing is in progress.

Testing is in progress.  I hate tests.  Always have.  Never been good at them.  My SAT scores were 940 the first time and 960 the second time.  I just do not test well.  I know its not a reflection of my intellegence, because what I lack in testing ability I make up for in perseverence and longivity.  I just don't like to quit.  For as much as I hate taking tests, I loath quitting that much more.

Not that I have never wanted to quit. I've said to myself "I quit" or "I can't do this" countless times, but something in me pushed me on past the breaking point to complete what I started.  So even if I do not excel with flying colors on a test, I never quit it.  For me the pass is not the percentage of what I get right, but whether I finished the class as a whole.

So what am I getting at?  Its simple.  Finish what you start. And understand that testing is always in progress. The tests never stop coming.  Its the stress of them that stretches us to grow into the people we are designed for.   Let me reiterate that I hate tests, but I love completing them. I love filling in the last bubble and handing it in with some sort of confidence that I completed the thing I hate, and pass or fail, hell or high water I'm still learning.

Monday, January 4, 2010

Why Jeremiah?

You may be asking yourself why I chose the name Jeremiah for my blog.  Well...its really deep and spiritual. Actually, truth be told, Jeremy was already taken.  


Jeremiah however was the name my parents indended to give me when I was born, but when the nurse asked my dad what my name would be she wrote down Jeremy, even though he clearly stated Jeremiah.   I suppose my parents figured Jeremy was a derivative of Jeremiah and its shorter, so it makes for signature convenience. So Jeremy stuck.



JEREMIAH
Gender: Masculine
Usage: EnglishBiblical
Pronounced: jer-ə-MIE-ə (English)  [key]
From the Hebrew name יִרְמְיָהוּ (Yirmiyahu) which meant "YAHWEH has uplifted". This was the name of one of the major prophets of the Old Testament, author of the Book of Jeremiah and (supposedly) the Book of Lamentations. He lived to see the Babylonian destruction of Jerusalem in the 6th century BC. In England, though the vernacular form Jeremy had been occasionally used since the 13th century, the form Jeremiah was not common until after the Protestant Reformation.


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Of Hebrew Origin, meaning "appointed by God"
Guided by the sure and the true
What he promises he does
Willing to go that extra mile
Others think he has a great personality
Many see in him the power of love and faith
He will accomplish great things
He greets each day with joy and wonder


(C)1996 The Historical Research Center, Inc.


That came from a frame that Jess and I keep in our bathroom. When we first got married back in 2002 we went to Williamsburg, VA for our honeymoon and while there we went to Bush Gardens one day. There was a booth there that let you pick a picture and then put the meaning of your names side by side to each other. We picked a scene of the beach with ocean waves crashing, since we had been married on the beach with ocean waves crashing. Jess then picked a violet matte to frame the picture since that was the primary color of our wedding.  Jessica's name means:


From Jessica, a name of Hebrew origin, 
Meaning "wealthy one"
Fascinated by unexplored lands
She understands that everyone is not perfect
She is energetic in all that she pursues
A charitable, giving nature is what she has
She capitalizes on all her strengths
Overall, a very thoughtful person
A genuine and true friend. 


I've tried to hang this picture in our bathroom wherever we go so we are reminded who we are and what are names mean every morning and evening when we wash our face and brush our teeth. I have found that we seem to be living out our name meaning a little more each day. Its quite fascinating actually. 


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Another website stated that Jeremiah means, sent by God.  


So either way I've got a calling.  Jeremiah, Jeremy, Jerm whatever you want to call me. I'm not picky. 




Friday, January 1, 2010

to 2010




The Number Ten


It has been already pointed out that ten is one of the perfect numbers, and signifies the perfection of Divine order, commencing, as it does, an altogether new series of numbers. The first decade is the representative of the whole numeral system, and originates the system of calculation called "decimals," because the whole system of numeration consists of so many tens, of which the first is a type of the whole.


Completeness of order, marking the entire round of anything, is, therefore, the ever-present signification of the number ten. It implies that nothing is wanting; that the number and order are perfect; that the whole cycle is complete.


-http://www.biblestudy.org/bibleref/meaning-of-numbers-in-bible/10.html


So here we go, 2010!  Feels good doesn't it?  Even rolls off the tongue easier than 2009.  And to top it all off we're already better off than 2012 according to the Mayans and Hollywood.  2010 for me is a year of promise and a year where I personally have nothing left to loose.  2009 left me rather beaten and with some battle scars, perhaps it did you as well, but I find them rather becoming and distinguished if I'm honest.   I can say that I've stood up to opposition and having done everything to stand, I stood, and still stand firm.


This puts a certain swagger in my step as I walk into a new year.  Not that I claim a confidence in my own ambition, but rather I am confident in who I am and more sure of my calling than ever before. This is something I have to cling to as I know that there will be more obsticles I will have to face, but I now face them knowing that I can overcome them. Be it temptation, hardship, persecution from those close to you (which it usually is) or whatever may come, I now know that I am more than a conqueror through Him who loves me. (romans 8)


So a toast to new obstacles, new adventures, new friends and old friends and everything life can throw at us.  May we face them like lions and roar in the face of fear!  And may you become the one He has purposed you to be!