True self

Journal Entry: May 14, 2009

What am I doing to prepare for eternity? What am I doing that is eternal and what am I doing that is temporary? I know things (ie. stuff, material possessions) are carnal and I cannot take them into eternity. However, my essence and character was started in me in the womb, therefore, I am a continuation of what God started. Have I become my "true self" made in His image and conformed to His will? Or have I taken on a phony identity, becoming a walking charade and chameleon?

My true being is found in Christ. For in Him, we live and breathe and have our being. Everything else is fake. Who would know how you're really supposed to be better than your Creator? Created things can only mimic what their Creator has created. They cannot create anything they haven't already seen their Creator do. "I can only do what I've seen my Father do" -Jesus. (John 5:19)

I am a speck

Journal Entry: May 13, 2009


Another journal. I'm finding this to be a treasure in my life. When I look back on all my journeys, travels, and experiences, all in all, God is faithful. And my development into an apostle, ambassador, evangelist, and songwriter is marked with tears, sweat, and constant daily death to me in order that Christ become more. I'm learning that this is not about me. I play a part, yes. But in the whole scheme of things, ultimately, I am a speck. And through God's love, power, and grace, I will be a speck that stirs up other specks, to leave our mark in history.


I am also finding that I do not see eye to eye with everyone, and have learned to state my beliefs in spite of opposition. My purpose is becoming clearer everyday. My drive is my love for Jesus and a longing to have crowns from this life to lay down at His feet. I am a son of the Kingdom.